Im in Sydney *innaproprieate word for female dog*!

The star has arrivedz! After like 32 hours of travel I am finally here!

Mood of today: Happy
Weather: Way too sunny and way too hot (in other words 27 degrees and Sun)

Time to be egoistic; if you are not interested in what I do or my life - please don't keep reading.

My family and I are at the moment staying in an apartment in Manley, a suburb of Sydney. This suburb has like one shopping street that is like 50 meters or something. And that's it. Other than that there are two beaches, one that is very close to the house and one on the other end of the shopping street.

The other beach is really big and if you are person who likes beaches (in other words not me) you'd think it is amazing.

I can not say that it is not beautiful when the turquoise waves roll in, one by one to create a symphony that will flush away all of our troubles.

Only if it wasn't so hot.


When I came to the beach the first time (the whole suburb is basically beach, and people wear their bikinis in the streets), I thought "how can everybody be so skinny here"? Because earlier that day, I had been to the supermarket, and I tried to find food such as plain yoghurt, unsalted nuts and other GI friendly things.
It was really hard to find and when I finally had found everything and went to pay, it ended up costing a minor fortune.

Long story short, being healthy here is hard.

Anyway. At new years eve (yesterday) the city was crowded, everybody seemed to be outside. And then I realized; there are way more bigger people here than there are skinny people, but they stay inside.
And it is not hard to understand why.
Because who wants to show their body like that when media is constantly throwing at us that we should look good, otherwise we shouldn't show at all.

This is just terrible because you can't really become healthy if you stay inside.

This pisses me off!

Movies choose beautiful actors and actresses for the main roles. Commercials and ads are telling us that if we just buy their product, we can become just as happy and beautiful as the retouched and plastic people in the ad. Even a big part of the music industry is telling us that if you just have love, then everything will be okay.

DON'T LISTEN! No matter what you see, or hear, beauty is not going to make you happier, nor is the unnecessary crap in ads. The only thing that is going to make you happier is self esteem and the ability to be pleased with your life and like what you've got.


The only part of this post that you really should read is the red part, the rest is more for me, so it is kinda crappy - Editors note (who else?) -

Health

What exactly is health?

Biologists and personal trainers would maybe agree that it is having a healthy body, while as for psychologists and shrinks, I'm sure they would agree that it is much more than that.

I have been thinking a lot about this, and here is my story.

During the last year, my confidence has been at the bottom. Completely rock bottom, I wouldn't wear tanktops and I would dress in clothes that were too big, so that I could hide myself in them.

Eating and sleeping healthy was never a problem, my mother would help me with eating healthy dinners, in school, our lunches weren't too good and we had no cafeteria, so we were more or less forced to eat salad.

I was never skinny, my BMI* has, as long as I've been knowing what it is, been higher than average, but still not over the top for overweight.
As my confidence improved, I gained weight.
Simply because I stopped thinking about what I put in my mouth and lived my life to the fullest.

What I forgot though, was the fact that everybody is different, and just because my friends can eat pastries and sweets everyday without gaining weight and destroying their teeth, doesn't mean that I can.

Nature just isn't fair like that.

I was soon at the medical definition of overweight, and the clothes I once had bought to hide in were now actually fitting me, and some were even becoming tight.

So there I was, with a body covered in stretchmarks and the realization that "I am fat".

The honeymoon was over. Time to start changing lifestyle. Easy.

Or not. Living life "on the go" makes it really hard to find any time to work out, it also gives you a very limited choice when it comes to food.

Another matter to count in is the fact that I am only 15 years old, trying my best to take care of myself, it is not always the easiest. I don't eat candy, but it is hard to eat milk with healthy grain flakes for breakfast when there is white bread with jam to choose if I so preferred.

Now, it is time. Time to do something.

I have to do one of the hardest tasks I think I've faced so far, ever.

Trying to reach a healthy weight, and reaching a healthy body image at the same time.

In other words - becoming healthy.


My plan about loosing weight is not that important, what happens happens, but it is not going to be that interesting to read about. What is important when trying to loose weight is to reward yourself every now and then.
You don't want to live your life eating fiber flakes, every now and then you can eat the frosties, just not every day. I try to limit my selfrewardings to once a week.



But that is not too important.
What Is important, and what I want you to read and spread to your friends, family, anybody, is to keep a good body image. What you must realize though is that it will not happen quickly.
You have to be patient.

With the patience matter, I got a really good advice.

The advice that I got was: No numbers.

Whatever you do, no numbers. It is when you start counting the kilos and the calories that you will get a worse body image. You will think "why did I eat that?" or "why am I not loosing weight quickly enough?".
You will see the improvement anyways, you will feel it. When you eat healthy, you know it, and by knowing that, a chemical process in your brain will start producing rewarding chemicals and you will feel happier, the same for working out.

Love yourself! These are a few tricks to help you on the way.

1. Try not to look in mirrors, at all. If you have a pocket mirror in your bag, take it out.
2. When you do look in mirrors, think about what you like with yourself.
3. Wearing make-up is not a crime, neither is straightening your hair or even wearing "body shapers" If something makes you feel pretty, wear it.
4. Always believe that you are good enough, because you are.

*BMI = Body Mass Index. A way of measuring weight and length to get an idea of the ideal weight. What the BMI doesn't count in though is for an example of a person is very muscular, or as for me, has very wide shoulders, therefore, be careful, it is not trustworthy.

wow..

This is one of the best blogs I've ever read. I recommend you to go and read it, and maybe even follow, I find it hard to believe that this girl is attending high school, and already has the ability to write and think the way she apparently does.

http://waterpuddlesandcastles.tumblr.com/

wow..

http://streetlightsandnightskies.blog.com

Even more blogs! I can't get enough of blogs! I have started yet another blog! It will alternate in both Swedish and English, and it will contain abstract and poemlike texts, that I write just for the sake of writing them.

There will be glances into my head, but you must remember that I write to let my feelings out, and that I have nothing on there that is written before 10 pm, so it might not always be the most positive posts.

But don't misunderstand me, I am truly happy right now. I love my life, and I love writing and that is the only reason for my blogs.

Since that one is done through a blog.com account, I can update via my phone, and will therefore update about twice a week, at least.

who am I and what am I supposed to do?

"There are things in life that we have to do, otherwise we are not human, just a little peice of dirt"

I think that we should do our best to enjoy life.

If we enjoy life, we are able to help others to that too, which can lead to even more joy for ourselves.
If we enjoy life without fear of loosing the joy, we can be truly happy.
I am not saying that you should be happy all the time, because that would not work, nor be healthy.
If we were to always be happy, we wouldn’t know what it feels like not to be, and therefore we wouldn’t be able to appreciate it as much.

I don’t think that anybody, ever, will be able to truly know who one is, because, as we search for ourselves, we change. Once you think you know a thing about yourself, that thing changes, faster than you realise.

”Drenched in my pain again, becoming who we are.”
”As my memories rest, but never forgets what I lost.”

I think those are good quotes on this subject. I don’t think we can even get a hum on who we are without going through pain. Nor do I think that we are able to truly appreciate something until we loose it.

Haters’ gotta hate (or not)

As the internet user you are, there is a high percentage that you have an account on Facebook. Maybe you have also noticed a big amount of groups with names similar to ”all of us who hate...” or ”we hate...” whatever it is that the people in the group ”hates”.

The word hate is very strong, but seem to have lost part of its meaning. I think that hate is a word to strong to use when you are talking about a for an example, a commercial, or maybe a person you haven’t even met.


Here is the dictionary’s description of what hate is.

hate |hāt|
verb [ trans. ]
feel intense or passionate dislike for (someone) : the boys hate each other | he was particularly hated by the extreme right.
• have a strong aversion to (something) : he hates flying | [with infinitive ] I'd hate to live there.
• [with infinitive ] used politely to express one's regret or embarrassment at doing something : I hate to bother you.
noun
intense or passionate dislike : feelings of hate and revenge.
• [as adj. ] denoting hostile actions motivated by intense dislike or prejudice : a hate campaign.
DERIVATIVES
hatable |ˈhātəbəl| (also hateable) adjective

There has also been a lot of ”chainstatuses” as for an example ”copy and paste this to your status if you would scream ‘JUMP’ if you saw Justin Beiber on a rooftop”

What I dont understand is how people can say such things about a person they haven’t even met.

Imagine seing a complete stranger on a rooftop, would you really encourage them to take their own life?

I can understand that people dislike the music, but does that really mean that you hate the actual person and actually want them to die? Or do you? If you do, please comment, I would love to hear somebody disagreeing with me.